Monday, December 31, 2007

A motto for 2008

One of the secrets of a long and fruitful life is to forgive everybody everything every night before you go to bed.
(Ann Landers)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Sunday, December 9, 2007

I love you Grandma

Today my Grandma passed away. I have never had anyone close to me die, it's very hard. I feel happy for her, she having a great time in heaven, reuniting with her husband and seeing Jesus. I just miss her. I want to call her up and talk but I can't. It's hard to think about. Below are some of the last pictures of her about a week ago.


Thursday, November 15, 2007

Honesty

I have been thinking alot about honestly lately. Sometimes it can be cruel and unnecessary and other times can gain you respect and solve problems. I am one of those people who just wants everyone to like me and everyone to get along no matter what. I guess I just don't want to be one of those people who just says whatever they think regardless of the consequences or other's feelings. I am constantly apologizing for something I said that I'm afraid might be taken wrong and I think it annoys people. I don't handle conflict very well and sometimes would rather "tell a little white lie" than cause any trouble. Then I go home and stew about my true feelings on the subject.
So lately, I've been more honest, in a tactful way. It's such a great feeling to actually let people see the real me.
The fact is, people are going to have conflict and have issues with others...even perfect little me...jk!!! And I can't fix it all. There's alot of freedom in that and perhaps it will deepen some of my relationships.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Pain and hopefully, Gain

So, yesterday was the first day of the adventure of the gym. Now, I thought that I was in ok shape. I've been doing a little workout at home and just wanted to get something more consistent and be pushed harder. Well, thats exactly what happened!!! I got pushed harder and harder and past the limit of what I feel my muscles can handle!!! So today I can barely move. I did not think I could make it through the hour class called "cardio pump", but I did, barely. My cousin April and I are doing it together which is good because otherwise....well, I feel like giving up today. We are both dying of sore muscles today but we know that we need to go back to see results and work out the kinks. So by the New Year, we'll be lean, muscled, "hot mama's"....just wait and see!!! Ok, if not, at least we'll feel better and have more energy.

I have been a lot more busy lately than I wanted to be. I am going to town for something almost everyday of the week. Mon I have MOPS and workout, Tue I babysit a neighbor boy, Wed workout, Thurs shopping, appointments and workout, Fri bible study. It's not too much to handle, but it just means I need to get more organized so that I get all the house stuff done too. It makes me wish I lived closer to town too. It's 15-20 minutes to get in to town and I end up using alot of gas. So maybe someday we'll have to think about moving closer in. I like my land and trees though:-)

I can't believe the holidays are almost here. Besides, Christmas we have alot of upcoming birthdays in the next three months. Martha, Maria, Mishael, Regina, Miriam, Fred, Lynette, and Joe.
We are going to Chicago for Christmas to spend it with Joe's Mom and family out there. We are really excited to go. It will be Eric's first plane ride.

Here are a few more pictures that I got taken in CA:



Thursday, September 20, 2007

My Trip - Part 2

The last day I was there, Grandma took me to Laguna Beach. We ate lunch at this beautiful restaurant by the ocean. I guess it's a restaurant they've been going to for over 60 years!!! We just walked along the beach a little and took some pictures.

My lovely grandmother




We got some people to take our picture and it ended up they were from Germany!!! It seemed like such a coincidence that we'd meet people from Germany just like us.



It was alot of fun and a nice relaxing vacation, but I'm glad to be home. I really missed my guys!!! I hope I can take Eric there in the next few years when he's able to enjoy it more.

My Trip - Part 1

I took a week-long, baby free trip to CA to visit my grandparents. It was so much fun to see everyone but it's good to be home.

The first day I was there, my grandma took me to get glamour photos taken. It's kind a little tradition she has started with the granddaughters. It was so special. I felt like a model, they do your makeup and hair and then show you how to pose.
This is the pose we picked and I really like it.



I then went up to my Aunt's house in the mountains for a few days. My uncle is a football coach at the highschool so I got to go and see my first football game. It was fun and I understood it more after my aunt explained the basics of football to me!!! Afterward, we went to a victory party and had a feast of enchiladas, taquitos, homemade refried beans, chips-n-salsa, and salad.



My Aunt Ronda and I at the game...it was freezing cold but we got to sit in the announcer's booth which helped.


My Aunt Ronda and Uncle Tim.


The next day we went to a recording studio to get the harmony part recorded on a song my aunt wrote. It was really fun to see how everything gets put together and wonderful to hear her song.

This is a picture of the house they are building. It's really spectacular.



I got to go to my cousin Philip's wedding while I was down there and it was lots of fun. I saw my other cousin Jason, Uncle Tom and the Dalys (sp?). I only got pictures from one side during the ceremony. Here is Philip at the altar.



My cousins, April and Jessina were bridesmaids.



Sunday, August 26, 2007

Beautiful Women

I was reading my friend's blog (Sonyetta) and I thought she put into words what I've been really thinking about lately. Here's what she said:

"I wish women knew how beautiful they are. Why is everyone so obsessed with getting rid of wrinkles? Why do we feel the need to run the household, run the business, AND run twenty miles a week? I used to think that if I just lost enough weight, I would feel good enough, but I realize that's not true. In fact, many of my friends who are half my size are even more insecure than I am. And the world just keeps layin' it on us, ya know?

I don't get why youth is such a coveted thing. What's wrong with a few wrinkles? If you're fifty, what does it matter if you look fifty? If you've survived fifty years on this planet you deserve to look a little rough around the edges. Those lines show that you lived. You laughed and cried and loved and brought forth life and you should be proud of yourself.

I've spent so much of my life hating my body, but I can now look in the mirror and have profound respect for my body. It's been up and kickin' for 23 vicious years and yet it has rarely given me any major fits. I certainly don't deserve to have had it treat me so well, not after how I treat it, and yet here I am. I may not have the perfect figure, but my body is sturdy and strong. It's got more than it's fair share of bagage to haul around but doesn't complain too often. I feel blessed to have this body.

Maybe next time you look in the mirror, instead of noticing the newest zit, or the size of your hips or whatever it is you usually gripe about, think about everything your body has done for you. Breathe a prayer of thanks if you're healthy. Think about all the things it has gone through and will go through and what an amazing piece of machinery it is. And that face of yours may not be everything you hoped it would be, but I'll bet someone loves that face. Those eyes speak love. Those lips curled in a smile can warm someone's heart. And best of all- you are a reflection of Jesus, the One whose beauty is so brilliant one cannot look directly upon it. So don't hide your light under a basket. Let it shine girl, you're the only one who can bring your gift to the world. Nobody can take your place.
"

This is Sonyetta....isn't she beautiful? She has one of the most bubbly, sunshine-filled personalities and even though I think she's gorgeous, it never mattered what she looked like because she really cared about me. I know another girl who is really gorgeous, but she's acts mean, pretentious, and superior. So to me, she's ugly....anyway, (climbs off soap box).

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Family Camp

I got back from Family Camp on Sunday and was completely exhausted. It was fun but tiring....maybe from lack of sleep. It was just Gina and Eric and I that ended up going. The camp was held in Plains, MT, about a 1.5 hour drive from where I live. You can kinda see the "P" on the hill for Plains. Most Montana towns have a letter on the mountain or hill for the town.

We would get up and eat breakfast at 8:00 am. Then there were optional mini-bible studies. The one I went to was called "Laugh your way to a better marriage". It was really funny and interesting. Then we had lunch at 12pm and free time until 5:30 when we ate dinner. The Camp was held at a fair ground with buildings for eating etc but no dorms. I decided to try to set up camp in an old concession building. This is what it looked like.

The first night I tried sleeping there but it was too cold and also a little gross, (dead bugs, mouse droppings etc). So the next night I slept in my car....laid the seats down and a egg carton mattress topped with towels. We were nice and warm and didn't have to worry about spiders. Here is a pic of my bed:


In the evening we had a service. The worship was let by a Christian Rock band called the Angie Raess Band. They were very good and excellent musicians. The speakers at the camp were professional actors from CA who also do comedy ministry. There were very funny and really kept your attention while getting their point across. It was really refreshing. I think everyone really enjoyed it.

I wish I had taken more pics....here are some more.






Our Friend Pam Knight


Bonnie Khenne, we kinda substituted her for Mom. She and Mom are alot alike and I really missed Mom at camp.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Do you ever wake up in a bad mood? You don't know why but everything and anything is irritating. Thats me today. I just feel blah, fat, and like I'm mad at whoever happens to talk to me. Now that I write this it seems ridiculous!!! Anyway, I guess i feel pretty drained from this last week/weekend. The family reunion was alot of fun, people and noise. After a few days of being sleep deprived from staying up late, the heat and lots of visiting (and fully enjoying it), it definitely saps your energy. I'm so glad we did it and hope that we can do it again in the near future. I was talking to my Grandma Mary who is the Matriarch of the whole Laudadio clan and she seemed like she was very proud of her family. She said as she looked at all the people during the reunion it made her think of how her and my Grandpa Tony (who is in heaven) started it all. How you have a few kids and then they have kids and pretty soon you have a big family. She was joking and said, "all of this is our fault"!!!. Anyway, here are some pics.


Four Generation picture...I look a little wierd.


Grandma and her "five" children. They are making a spot for John who wasn't able to make it.


All the Laudadios....it's impossible to everyone looking at the camera and smiling....so this is the best we can get.


My cousin Daniel and I dancing. My Aunt Jeanie and several of my cousins are great dancers so Maria took us all out one night to dance. I can't dance but Daniel was trying to teach me.


A BBQ at my Grandma's Assisted living apartments. My cousins Dave and Joy came along with my nieces Kendra and Lynette.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

busy busy

So we have alot of things happening at once. The most exciting thing is that I got a new car. Joe and I have been thinking about it for a while because my car has a lot of miles on it and has been needing a lot of repairs. It also tended to go just go dead with no apparent notice. Usually it chose to do that when I was late and hopping in the car at the last minute.
We also wanted to get something with 4Wheel Drive since our road is in very bad condition and the winter is almost impossible. We ending up getting a Toyota Rav4 which drives like a little car but has more room and is an SUV. Here are some pictures.





Now Joe is thinking about getting a truck because he uses his car for hauling stuff so much for work and he needs more towing abilities.

So besides that, we have the Laudadio Family reunion coming up this week. People start to get here today and will be here until Mon. It's going to be alot of fun and maybe chaos. We've been trying to avoid that by planning everything very thoroughly. I am really looking forward to seeing everyone.

I also painted my kitchen and partial living room. Right after we put the first coat on, a large wind, lightning, and rain storm came up and we were without electricity until morning. Reminds me that I need to get more emergency lighting. Unfortunately what I have is a few candles that put off very little light. It's interesting how when you have no TV and everything is dark, you realize that there is nothing to do but go to bed. I guess thats why back in the day, they would rise with the sun and go to bed with the sun. Not my ideal schedule!!!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Contentment

I've been thinking lately about how I need to change. I was talking to my Grandma Mary today, whom I am alot like, and we both worry about everything. I already worry about wrinkles and how to keep my son away from drugs when he's older.
I also don't do things because I want them to be perfect. I obsess over things because I'm not sure that it's the best way it could happen. For example: My walls in my house are all still white even though I've been talking about paint colors for like a year or so. When someone suggests we go somewhere, I have to think about all the things I need to bring, whether we should go at a different time...etc etc. instead of just being spontaneous. Maybe some of that is good but not to the extreme.

So my conclusion is that for one, I need to be content with my life and not worry that maybe I could have done something differently. I need to just jump into things sometimes, not big decisions, but little every day stuff. I need to take one day at a time. I need to trust that God is in control of my life and will give me strength to face the unknown. Worrying will only make more wrinkles!!!


Ok, so that's my lecture for myself and anyone who identifies with it.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Gilmore Girls

Current mood: sad

As I sat bored and wondering what to watch, it started to wash over me like a flood of melancholy waves.
Memories of that fateful day. When it happened. And without warning. To me anyway.

"sniff, sniff". Blows nose loudly.

Gilmore Girls ended. I know it's been a while but it's as fresh to me as if it were yesterday. I can't believe I even just typed those words. I am aghast, horrified, devastated, undone, disbelieving, without hope....

It wouldn't be so bad if they didn't end it like they did. But I guess they really can't have Rory get married. Then the "Gilmore Girls" wouldn't be the "Gilmore Girls.

I know I'm probably the only one in the world who is so upset but it has meant a lot to me and impacted my life in ways I can never describe.

It will be missed, not only in my heart but on Tuesday nights when I turn to the DVR only to find is empty, devoid of any "real" shows to watch.

My finger will never push play on a new episode, never laugh uncontrollably at something Lorelei said (..stops to think "have I ever done that?), never see Kirk's disturbingly weird stomach/chest area.

Ok this is really getting old.
Just thought I'd share.
I'm not really that pathetic, at least I hope not.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Independence day

July 4th was hot, clear skies and beautiful. We were invited to a barbecue at our neighbors and that was fun. They played volleyball and had swimming for the kids. We had to wait until around 10:30 to start the fireworks because it is staying light so late. It was like 12:00 before we were ready to head home. Martha and Maria came for fireworks and with everyone we had a nice big crowd to enjoy the beautiful show.
So we are all very tired today. I think Eric and I will try to take a nap.


Eric and Tony swimming


Eric and his friends on the trampoline


Gina and I being silly after we got home at like 1:00 am

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Summer Daze





It's been very busy and hot. Today, we went to the beach, which I had never been to. It's was a nice, actual beach and although Eric didn't like the water, it was nice to sit in the sun. I will have to take him more so that he gets used to being in the water.

Lately I have been realizing how obsessed I get about stuff. Then I start worrying about being obsessed. I have a hard time being spontaneous. I want to think through all the options and make sure it's the best possible outcome. This can be good in some ways but it's certainly very tiring.

Right now I'm losing my voice because I am still fighting this cold. I have been dosing myself with zinc, vit C, probiotics, trying to avoid it. So now I've felt like I'm almost sick for days.

I hope I'm not one of those people that always complaining.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Watch your back, you never know when there is a dog ready to bite

Originally posted June 26th, 2007
Yeah, it was bizarre. I got bit by the neighbors dog yesterday. It all started when I noticed it rained and I had left my windows in the car down. So I went out, turned the key, rolled them up and forgot to turn off the key. (by the way, who does that, I mean that is pretty air-headed to leave a key on). Anyway, so I am getting in my car to take my grandma to the foot doctor and it won't start. I spot my unsuspecting neighbor talking on the phone on his porch so I go over there to ask him to jump my car. The whole time I'm talking to him this dog is growling and barking at me. I turn to walk away and he lunges at me and nips me in my upper thigh. So now I sit, with a sore leg and sore arm from a Tetanus shot. The bite wasn't bad although it did puncture the skin. The neighbor felt very bad and offered to pay for anything I needed.

The lesson I learned is to stop giving dogs the benefit of the doubt. I always think "hm, he looks and sounds like he wants to rip me to shreds but his bark is probably worse than his bite". Well, now, I will always assume they have evil intent.

Originally posted June 25th, 2007

Right now, Joe is in Idaho with his family. I miss him and wish I could be down there with him. His Grandfather passed away yesterday. It's really hard on everyone. He was a very successful man and it's very sad when someone dies and the family argues about money. I'm afraid that will happen here but I hope not. I think time with family is priceless and when they are gone, money is the least thing to think about.

Life has been a little crazy. We've been trying to get yard work done and I planted the flower-beds finally. Petunias, lilies, daisies, marigolds, miniature roses, and a bunch of little flowers I don't know the names of. We also built a gigantic storage shed on our property which is finished except for the tin on the roof. It was really neat because it was something we did together. Joe and I raised the walls all by ourselves. I'm sure he lifted more weight than me!! We have been renting a small unit for a while and it's such a pain to get to. Now we can organize our ski equipment, tools, tires etc so we can get to it. It's so nice.

The group of ladies I exercise with every week did a "Boot Camp" for the month of June. 6 AM, yep, it's way too early. But I guess I am really committed to staying fit because I've actually been getting up and going. The only times I've missed is when Joe had to go to work early and couldn't stay with Eric. We flip tires, pull a tire across the yard, run laps etc. It's hard but good. The only problem I had is that when I got home, I was wheezing really bad and couldn't get a breath. I've had a cough for several months but after this episode decided to finally go the the doctor. I've never had any trouble with asthma although it runs in my family so it was very scary for me to not be able to breath. Basically, the doctor said my lungs are irritated and inflamed from the cough and haven't been able to heal. So I'm using an inhaler for two weeks and it seems to help.

I belong to a MOPS group (mothers of preschoolers) and we participated in a fundraiser for the American Cancer Society; Relay for Life. It's a 12 hour, all night event where you walk for a cure. Our group raise almost $2,000 so it was definitely a success. It's really fun to hang out with other Moms too because everyone understands and isn't going to give you dirty looks if your child misbehaves. They have been there too.

Well, I think I'll stop for now. I love you all.